Tear

TEARS
Now that it’s over
I shed a tear from the heart
Its hard to end it
And begin a new start
I have no wound
But I feel some pain
Knowing when I see you
I feel the same
Its not easy to change
Cause love you cant buy
I gave it my all
‘cause all I can do is just try
I continue to cry
But it doesn't show
It is like the rain
It comes and goes
Does not show in the face
The tear in my heart
As long as I pretend
We can only be friends

I wrote this for a friend back in 10th grade as he was going through his relationship problems. Being their mentally and physically was not easy for I endured and absorbed some of his pain but it always been second hand.

That brings me to my next point about me (life). I have endured many experiences and feelings through all the people I have encountered second handily... but now I have experiences of my own first hand even though I'm at ease about most of them because i know what comes next. it sure does not make my days go by any faster.

my feelings is like a whole roll of mentos in a well shaken Pepsi bottle... my feelings sometimes become very unpredictable for any and every situation. Just now i was washing dishes and starting tearing, I can be watching a cartoon and be in a moment of sadness. People ask if I'm depressed, no I'm not, I'm just a bottle of water in the freezer for to long!

I feel solely stupid for i brought myself to learn the best for me and others listening to R&B music -112, jagged edge, lil zane, donell jones, musiq soulchild, Jill scott, floetry, joe, beyonce, Alecia keys, etc. They all taught me what not to do, and what to do! but did i listen no!

Instead of being hated and respected - now i am hated and not respected - I always say i would die for my respect for i didn't have it growing up... just maybe, maybe i will have a slim chance to redeem myself...

cliche quote: musiq Soulchild said "What would it take to be In a love I know that's right for me And I know that you don't even know me yet But I believe that one day I'll be where you are"

Zues realization: emotion is the truth behind feeling - feeling is the truth behind your heart - your heart is the truth behind the truth - the truth is the truth behind freedom of mental and physical evasions to proceed in life as one should!