"CANCER"

In Vegas, during a karaoke night in the Sahara: after an old man was done performing, he stepped down off the stage. Looked at me and said “this was my mother’s favorite song and she would have loved to hear it and I love her very much”. He walked away in silenced shortly after, and I continued my night of drinks and laughter. Approximately an hour later the old man was sitting next to me and passes me a shot and starts talking to me, so I sat and listened. Disclaimer: I hate typing long stories but I’ll try my best in giving details ________________________________________________________________________________ Old man: “we need to enjoy life without being hesitant and don’t wait for something wrong to happen. We need to love and hold on tight. We need to not let temptation get the best of us cause that is what got the best of me at one point. I love my life, I love my wife to death and i cherish every moment I have her whether I am with her or not. You see, I lost my first wife because I had a female friend who one day asked me to come over and have sex, and I did just that, and my wife found out. The biggest mistake in my life I won’t regret but I’m glad to where it has taking me. I have not had sex with my wife in 2 years and my hands are getting real mad at me!” Laughed my ass off “my wife is very sick, but I stay by her side whenever I can, when I’m not, I’m out living. I have 7 kids and 24 grand kids and I love them, I love them all. I love them all. This is my first time in Vegas and I am in my over 60 years old. I’m having the time of my life. My brother got me staying in another room tonight cause he found him a girl, but what else can I do (Laughing)! I love my brother too. We came out here together to view Vegas, I never been here before. But I’m serious in what I say; the only way to be loved back is to love. There is no trick to do it but to do it. Just hold on tight. Just hold on tight. Just do it. *Deep Breath* A few months ago I found out I had two types of cancer, tried all them pills and chemo therapy but none of them worked. So I’m off it and I have about 6 months to live… don’t wait until the end, do it now every time you can” ____________________________________________________________________________ First train of thought: Out of all the people in this place the old man comes to me! I should be very blessed that he came to me. My debt to him was just listening and learning, and I’m sure that’s all he wanted. __________________________________________________________________ Second train of thought: I hate talking about love, I’m sorry, I dislike talking about love. The reason being is I once believed I will never be able to love, or be loved. Now encountering other people, witnessing other people, and I think experiencing (I said I think because I’m still trying to define what love is for me), people talk about love so much to share their experiences and up’s and down’s about love. This way this world wide opinion can be molded into its own creation of definition within oneself into perfection of good use. ______________________________________________________________________ Third train of thought: where and when do I apply this? Or am I applying this already? Or should I apply it when the time comes? Arghhhh! So confused at times, and at times confused. -- ________________________________________________________________________ Fourth train of thought: my day ends, my night begins. Whether a new beginning or the end of one, I must carry all that I have learned from the new end or beginning of one and apply it wisely. _______________________________________________________________ Current feeling: Lost and confused _______________________________________________________________ Song replaying in my head today: Emotional by Carl Thomas __________________________________________________________________ My cousin just told me “if you’re fighting and fighting and nothing, then why keep fighting? In a real fight once you lose, you lose, even in a rematch!” “Love what loves you” _________________________________________________________________________ Cliché quote: Once you choose hope, any thing's possible _____________________________________________________________________ Zues quote: Why start enjoying life at the point of notice of early termination – when we know as soon as we are born we begin to die anyway.

Definition of a SEX ADDICTION

Definition of Sex addiction

They say an addiction is being abnormally tolerant to and dependent on something that is psychologically or physically habit-forming / so I’m forming a habit physically and psychologically of something dependent and abnormally tolerant to you

They say sex is all feelings resulting from the urge to gratify impulses / so I’m gratifying my impulses from the urge of all my feelings that’s resulting from you

They say mental is involving the mind or an intellectual process / but I think I always confuse the process involving the body as distinguished from the mind or spirit that could involve the process of intellect / I will call it physical

They say suicidal is self-destructive: dangerous to yourself or your interests / but they have it all wrong, sex is an interest within itself and if it is not embraced it may self-destruct and that may be dangerous

They say stimulation is the act of arousing an organism to action / but how can action be defined when orgasmic arousal can begin without an act / Mental and Sensory Stimulations

They say orgasmic is the peak of sexual excitement, characterized by strong feelings of pleasure and by a series of involuntary contractions of the muscles of the genitals / but Webster got one thing wrong,,, I’m climbing to my peak voluntarily with the help of others

They say manifestation is a clear appearance / but my appearance is definitely not clear / nor my motives, my drive, my emotions nor my intentions

I say a sex addiction is an orgasmic stimulation with a mental manifestation that can be suicidal if not embraced

What’s your definition of a addiction?

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This one will be in the book I'm writing, so I thought I'd share with you just a bit!
Is it entycing enough?

Cliche Quote: "Leaving sex to the feminists is like letting your dog vacation at the taxidermist."

(Fyi - a female said/wrote that quote)

Zues Quote: Sex can't be over-rated cause to rate something is an appraisal of the value of something, thats like putting a price on love.