Merry X-mas every one... I'm posting this post up on Xmas but advertising it after... don't wanna hurt your brains on this day! even though i believe everyday is just one continuous days divided by measurements of the sun...
Anyway moving on...
Not Just on Christmas, but everyday I am very grateful for having a family that loves me, waking up under a roof above my head, a job, etc. This Christmas i am very sad because this Christmas is very different, I don't have a person to be excited with, no family, no physical love, whether a girlfriend or family, and one of the hardest days of the year i have to work this year! I have not felt this way since 2002 when i had my first Christmas without my father!
I try to express or explain to someone why i was feeling this way and that did not work out to well, they kept on telling me "stop being so sad" and "stop being all depressed on a day like this" - I ended up walking away cause people are ignorant. (I'm gonna explain) No matter the day nor the time, I am believed to have emotions and feelings, its nature! For some, human nature. So let me be sad, let me have a day of mope, a day of tears, a day to be sad for i don't do it all 365 days, just today and some after, but nothing of overwhelming thought! (Sheesh)
This Christmas I didn't need or want anything, or in a technical matter, nothing that can be given to me anyway by any individual! I'm just going to give to myself and continue writing, and publish my book! and some of the blogs in here as a reminder or to pass the knowledge on. Even if my book only sells one and that's cause I bought it (lol), I'll be ecstatic because it is a self accomplishment!
Getting back on track! The Break down
- The word MERRY can be defined as "Full of high-spirited gaiety; Jolly: Festive. I just thought about something, this is the only holiday with the word Merry. Why is that? is it because of the EXchanging of gifts? Does that make us materialistic that we need to designate a day for that? THINK ABOUT IT!
- The word EX can be defined as "without; not including; without the right to have. This Christmas I am allot without, girl, family, the physical, and in EXchange for my MERRY, i have a day of sadness.
- The word MISS can be defined as "to fail to hit, reach, attain, catch, meet, or otherwise make contact with. I MISSed my Christmas, joy, smile, ex, sleep, rest, family, friends because I am all without! Some temporary, some permanent, and some long durations!
You get it now? MERRY EX-MISS
Song Replaying in my head all day - "Betterman" by Musiq Soulchild
Cliche quote: "It is sadder to find the past again and find it inadequate to the present than it is to have it elude you and remain forever a harmonious conception of memory"
Zues Quote: you can have a Blue cow to keep you grounded, but the recipe with a frowning bull is all about possession that determines taste
1 comment:
I know this is rather later but looking at your work it gets interesting ... Hopefully you had a better holidays and that this particular day worked out for you.
I believe that you missed the true meaning of the day and not a televised "Hollywood" meaning. The word is actually Christmas and not X-mas or as you would say Ex-miss.
I get the play on words but if you are going to compare or define a meaning especially to something that specific as Christmas then there is no true definition of what EX-Miss is rather than that you have created. Sounds more like you missing a female rather than the gift-giving or even the fam.
there is more to the story that words probably cant describe but its just the Christmas thing that I take personal.
I am not hating or mocking your work I actually feel you on this one - I had many days like this.
Keep writing
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