Just a thought... mines of course...
The liberal truth is that I fucked up... how you may ask? I will not get into details, so this message, passage, or blog, (what ever you call it) will be brief.
The liberal truth is I fucked up, I messed up, and I must pay for playing with fire when I know I know better. Sounds like I'm talking to a little kid, but its the truth, and i have acting childish.
Pain will remain and shall be sustained for as long as the wound is green. Acceptance and silence is what I must do. To stop looking for the appraisal in my one good to over all the evils. For which PAIN cannot be measured, and should not be tolerated. For pain internally has caused the self infliction of pain externally. For pain may have been at the size of a grain of rice, but of the most deadliest there is. Again, PAIN cannot be measured.
I have done what I did, and let pain be inflicted back... Acceptance
What I don't understand is that at change, you feel the worst, and you feel the worst when you at change!
What I don't understand is that I'm facing the same sentence as the people who did worst then me, whether to the same person or even another party.
Pain...
I witnessed and witness stories and stories, and Pain, and Pain, and Pain has been even more inflicted then what I have ever done or can imagine. And their sentence was and is far less greater then mine. Makes me feel as the more pain and harm i could of done then better off I would of been...
But then again its not in my nature to do as such... Then you ask why has it done? Foolishness, pure foolishness... I am that "Clown"...
The repertoir of eMOTION, will never change... only in the deliverance, the pique and the peak...
I Fucked up...
Signs go up... Advertisements are now present themselves... subliminally knowing to many...
Window's now open, doors start turning, opportunity becomes the opportunist,
"sea full of sharks and they all smell blood"
I was once told " ASK FOR FORGIVENESS, DON'T ASK FOR PERMISSON"...
Forgive me...
and let me fill that void...
Again...
love you...
