Wednesday, September 28, 2011

"HEADLINES"

My friend told me the following:
“Most people are fast to stop you before you get started but hesitate to get in the way if you're moving. Ask for forgiveness not permission. Do what you need to do to be where you need to be.
Confidence. Emphasize strength, don't fix weaknesses.

How has doing what you should resulted in regret or not having done something else ...
No need to focus on a weakness when strength can get you so far.

That brings us to the point where no man is an island; your strength is my weakness.
You will do for me what I can't master and you the same; One hand washes the other.
Always consider what you are currently doing and ask yourself what would happen if I did the opposite of the people around me? What will I sacrifice while doing this for 5, 10 or 20 years
Ok ... Enough though generators from me.
Seriously think about what I sent you. You don't have to practice it but I strongly suggest that you consider it, save it and find some motivation in it”


Speaking from truth, from my heart and my mind:
In reference to everything my friend has said
Confidence I lacked; I had my strengths but dwelled in my weaknesses. Instead of being optimistic I was being pessimistic. It hindered me throughout my years, and this is why I’m In the position in which I am now. (which I won’t speak of) Today I woke up, not a revelation but a wakeup call and “snapped the fuck out of it”. It’s always been clear, but it’s acting upon it that had no motive to do. I have learned the hard way that it will always be me, myself, and I. That it is only I MYSELF that will make ME progress, but I was too stupid and waited for other to do what I was scared to do on my own.
Identifying the strengths was at first hard cause I was trying to do the impossible, but when I really sat down and thought about it my original purpose of beginning my journey to where I want to go, that’s when it all became clear. To focus on the strengths that is short term and immediate, this way it can result or tie in with the long term eventually. Perishing, eliminating, and shadowing my weaknesses. Doing what I should, focus, doing what I could, focus, focusing on being focused.

The island I have created for myself has only hurt myself, vacations of seclusion or meant for periods of time, not forever, and most importantly, not from the people who care. My strengths that may be another person’s weakness, if they fail to accept, then I must move on to one who will accept the help, but till then do it myself and find someone who will do the work. “One hand washes the other” they say.
My friend says “Always consider what you are currently doing and ask yourself what would happen if I did the opposite of the people around me? At first I was trying to answer this question, I don’t know why I couldn’t answer it, then I laugh and realize it is rhetorical. I am already doing the opposite of others. I just haven’t hit my 5, 10, 15 year mark to stop sacrificing, or however long it takes.  My friend should of said the non factors are meant to be there, not all roads are straight, there will always be bumps and feed off the haters, just means you doing something right. Jealousy maybe a sin but you can do without sin. Lol
Something I want to tell my friend: keep on generating, generators are made to keep the momentum going right? Oh and thank you for the motivation! Much needed for the journey I almost lost sight of and the direction I will choose alone at the fork.

End this with what another friend sent me today:
Whatever you PUT IN to ANYTHING,
is what you wil GET OUT of it.
If you want ANYTHING, then do EVERYTHING to make it WORK.
If you PUT NOTHING, you wil get NOTHING;
People who didn't PUT IN "Work" & want to get THINGS,
only THING they Going to Get...is to GET OUT!
Prov 24:30-34


THEY KNOW...

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

My Dream Wedding

I know when you saw the title that girls was like "awww" and guys was like "this nigga"... Yet yah are still reading this!?!
 
Anyway, here goes my "DREAM WEDDING"
 
The Location of my wedding will definitely be in the islands somewhere, don't know which one - but reason being is the ceremony will take place on the beach, right before sunset takes place. Small amount of people of very close family and friends, nothing big! My wedding is not a show case, and not in a bad way. I just don't need publicity to know I'm in love. This is a moment I would love to share, but then again it’s MY moment to cherish and enjoy. Feel me?
There will be like a red carpet like feel as the aisle leading up to where the priest marries us. The little kid who tosses the rose petals will throw white rose petals (think that will look good on the red carpet and also white means purity).

There will be about 4 grooms men/braids maid in either a dark purple, or a mid-blue color.
 

Bride to be dress: I'm not good at dresses... But I imagined the wedding dress to be similar to the one above. Nice slick silk looking tight fitted dress to accentuate and accommodate her curves. Nothing poofy, or umbrella like with a nice mid length train!

The ring: Of course the ring will come out the baby blue box. (For those who don't know what that means ask) The ring band will be platinum or white gold, and the ring style would be the "past present future". It will be no less then 2 ct diamond, princess cut for all the stones. Then for the stones on the side will be either her birth stone or just straight diamond. Then to add the final touch, there will be an engraving inside of a quote, "our love: a beginning w/ no end" or maybe even just the date of when we first started dating and our initials.
 
Wedding Vows will go a little like this:
“It was hard to propose to you in every aspect, from day one in taking in interest in you, to asking you out, to the day I proposed to you, all the way till right now. There has never been a doubt in my mind that you was the one, but it has been nothing but hard cause you have been nothing but perfect to me since day one as a friend, a girlfriend, and soon to be my wife.  I have made my mistakes, and I have messed up, yet you still have accepted me to be in your life. I have been far from perfect over the years, but there is something I do know, that from here on out, I will be far from perfect from this day forth. I love you far beyond love can be explained or described by any Shakespeare and not even death will do us part… I love you”
After her Vows…

Then I will have Musiq Soulchild Sing “Don’t Change” and beyoncĂ© sing “Dangerously in Love” - Then they will end it with a duet singing "Lets get married" by Jagged Edge
“till death do us part, I do”
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The reception is going to be off the chain! Let me tell you why! I’m half Puerto-Rican and half African American, and with whom I choose to marry I already know she going to be  of a different ethnic background, meaning the food is going to be of three different cultures! Soul food, Spanish food and whatever her native food is! (mouth is drooling) ooooh I can’t wait!!!
 ***Off to FIJI***
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This morning I woke up to a text with my friend giving the date he is jumping the broom! Very happy for him, that’s a big step and he is younger then I, BIG UP’S TO YOU BABY BOY!

Today someone told me a story that made me think beyond thoughts. Long story short: A 74 year old lady comes in a clothing store to buy new attire to look real good for a wedding. As being assisted, she tells the story of how for the last 20 out of 48 years of her marriage she was being abused and controlled by her husband. The reason why she stays is because her family will frown upon it, and for the sake of the kids. When she was going to make her purchase with her debit cards with her name, my friend had to call her husband to convince him to let her buy the clothes then secondly to get all the information to authorize the card.

My final thoughts: In all relationships I have been in I have been far from perfect, even though they tell me it’s the imperfections that make a person perfect for someone. I just believe that it is where the imperfections lie that makes it all difference, but in the end of the day who knows who am I right for? Only “she” can determine who is right for her, and I just have to sit here and except it, smile and be gracious. Something I do know though is that I will never put my hands on a women, I will never take a women for granted, I will never take control  of a women and the most important thing I do know is that if I marry a woman, I would only love that women till the end of my days…

Cliché quote: The best friend is likely to acquire the best wife, because a good marriage is based on the talent for friendship
Zues quote:  If the Webster dictionary can define love, then maybe its possible for me to define my love...











 "I LOVE YOU"
"IM IN LOVE WITH YOU"