DIE JULY 16th ! {The secret}

Your not gonna know what, who, where - but you will know when and why!

DAM YOU JULY 16th !!!

{As a man, "me", cry and write, I admit. Please know that I am also human amongst beast, and a beast amongst human}

The Day:

1: the day it ended
2: the day it started

1: the day it started
2 the day it ended

1: the day the pain started
2 the day the pain will begin

1: the day the pain began
2 the day the pain started

1: to far back to remember
2: not that far back to remember

1: there was no turning back
2 didn't know how to turn back

1: didn't want to but had to
2: didn't have to but wanted to

1: what do I do now
2: where do "I" go now

1: days seem longer
2: days won't speed up

1: back to square one
2: back in a square

1: "teach me how to love"
2: "love, so many things I got to tell you"

1: confused
2 confused

1: is there any where for me to go
2: where should I go from now

1: its been to long
2: its been to long

1: the peak of it all
2 the peak of it all

1: I lost it all
2: I'm losing it

1: the consequences I pay for my actions
2: the consequences I pay for our actions

1: lost
2: lost

1: what have I done
2 what have I done

1: has it been forever
2: it feels like forever

1: I wake to know I have nothing
2: "I" wake to know I have gained nothing

1: what should I do now
2: what should I do now

1: what did I lead my self into
2: what did I get myself into

1: its hard to say good bye
2: why don't you understand good bye

1: I run away
2: "I" walk away

1: silence is the solution
2: loud is the solution

1: I did it to myself
2: I did it to myself

1: anniversary to death
2: anniversary that was false

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A friend said to me "When the pain of staying the same becomes greater than the pain of change, then you'll make a difference"

At first I didn't understand this, and just like with many things in life I probably never will. Just as a rubber band has 1,000 uses - so does a quote!

So as I grew internally, how I translated it is, we as people, get stuck in this state of comfortability, stuck in comfortability you get stuck in the state of "the usual", when you get stuck in the usual its hard to break out of routine. In a negative aspect, when in these "states", we refrain to change cause when we can know what's gonna happen next, we as people, can control our environment.
{The pain of staying the same}

Then there comes a day, when a person gets very tired and weary. How you know is when you get stuck in a position where your saying everything in your head that's gonna happen, and now your in a state of "numb", the dumb stare, the silence, now when the usual comes, you predicting the next move. After this "numbness", you begin to move, after all the pain, you for some reason no longer feel, then and only then you will first mentally have a shift, secondly your body will make an adjustment, and thirdly your mind and body will start it. full revision.
{then you'll make a difference}

Cliché Quote: "The less routine the more life"

Zues Quote: Make a change off pain, you wasted a life - make a change at the surface of pain, you preserve a life time.